Hi, hello. Can you help me? I’m looking for who I used to be. Unconcerned, dazzled by the simple Things weren’t so clouded then. *** Excuse me. Are you busy? I’m looking for a life that’s a little less dizzy. Uncluttered, easy to slide into A soft, warm blanket would be welcome. *** Oh, I’m …
Author: Ashley Coulthard
An expat from Las Vegas, living in Japan. I have a blog dedicated to my life experiences, thoughts, and joys. I like to think of myself as a train wreck undergoing renovations.
Things I’ve Noticed AFTER Turning 30
The trends and habits of today's youth are starting to baffle me. What is so appealing about smooth-skinned hot thangs swishing their hips to some random EDM? They all make me feel fat, ugly, and old.
Things I’ve Noticed as I Turn 30
With age, our perceptions of things change. Long gone is the innocence of the world, the simple steps in life; wake up, go to work, make money, come home and sleep. I suppose the overcomplication of adult life could be simplified down to that bare minimum, but we refuse to see things so plainly. These are but one of the things I notice as I turn 30.
Back Home and My Fortune (New Year’s 2021)
So, I'm late on the new year's wishes and felicitations. That's OK, right? I travelled back to my hometown of Gotemba for the occasion. Arriving at night, the town was as quiet as ever. But I could see that the old royal residence wasn't immune to the tides of time. The Subway I had eaten …
Hey! What’ve you been up to?!
The dishes from Christmas dinner need to be put away. I keep staring out of the curtained window, like I'm waiting for something to happen. What is it artists use to record their videos? Do I even want to push my art into the world and jump on that bandwagon? A composition I threw together …
Impact
Smack. Crunch. Shatter. All of them end in silence. And from that, the impact resonates within us; spurring us to produce sound and action. Laughter. Cries. Applause. A determined light blossoms in the vast void of Us, ultimately taking shape as thoughts and half-baked, heartfelt nothings. Like the air around us, all impacts are mystical …
What is a hug?
In amazing human fashion, there are as many different takes on what a hug is as there are people on this planet. In my humble opinion, a hug is a place in which all is communicated and all is felt on the deepest of levels.
What have you been doing lately? (Part 2)
I shunned the idea and thought, "Pfft, why do I need to go find people? They should come to me!" I mean, that's what my family was always going on about whenever I'd have a falling out with love. Shouldn't it work the same way with friends? God, what a pompous noodle butt I was... am?
What have you been doing lately? (Part 1)
It's becoming more and more evident that, despite living out in the countryside, the virus will spread as long as people keep moving around, unaware they're contaminated. And would you believe I STILL see people not wearing a mask?
Self-doubt and Anxiety: I feel heavy.
I sit here, greatly perturbed. A weight is resting heavily on me. My throat is parched. Water... The answers are inside of us.
A Journal for Ashley 